Sunday, 13 April 2014

Not enough of me

Yesterday evening the sun was shining, we had had a busy day, little moo had fallen asleep after dinner, miss k was still full of energy I decided to take her on a bike ride, just me and her. . She loved it!!! She was chatting, smiling and laughing the whole time.
I realised I spend no time at all just me and her... she needs that and I don't make enough time for her, elsie gets plenty of alone time with me and she benefits from it. I have decided to make sure at least once a month me and katie will do something just the 2 of us..

Monday, 27 January 2014

Note to myself

I've not blogged in a while... im trying to get things straight in my head.. im trying to be the best mum possible and to not let anything worry them.
Im laying here preparing myself for yet another sleepless night.. im so tired yet I cant sleep. We are currently in the process of losing our house... its being sold and we need to find somewhere else. It doesnt even feel like home anymore.

The girls think/hope we are moving to a 'massive house with fields' thats not going to happen...

I find people mainly the ones closest to me.. asking "if I'm ok? I seem miserable" course im fucking miserable... im angry.
I wake up and tell myself today I will just smile.. we are all healthy everything to be happy about I have 2 amazing little girls who even in my darkest times make me laugh... although I feel I should do more with them?! Laugh more with them?!?
I hope they are truly happy...

I feel slightly better for writing it down...
Heres to better days ♡

Friday, 27 December 2013

Trying to shatter my christmas mood?

Wow yet another amazing christmas, I have the best family and love how we can not see each other much all year and for 1 day its like we have never been apart... its always so magical and I love this time of year... now the part where we find room for the mounds of toys and try to de clutter wondering when its acceptable to take the decorations down....
Right now my usual feelings at this time of year are tainted with a horrible feeling our landlords will not be renewing our contract on the 1st January. . . Through no fault of our own, due to personal issues of our landlords... I will be so sad to leave our beautiful house that we have made home.. we love the street,the people... everything.
We have no where to go no money to move...  I could be thinking totally the wrong thing but just incase anyone know anything about squatters rights???

Friday, 20 December 2013

The ordinary moments

This week has been a lot about cuddles,until you sit and think about it you don't realise just how much of your day is taken up with cuddles, when they wake up and join you in bed, when they go in to school or Playgroup, when they fall or just when you fancy.
Cuddles happen all the time with my girls it's an ordinary moment but definitely one of the best.


Wednesday, 18 December 2013

Wow week today!!

I cant believe its a week until christmas day!! I love the build up, but I don't know about anyone else but I can never feel totally relaxed until the actual day once everyone has opened presents and everyone is happy and having fun.. until then I never completely know if I have got everything.
I spend so much time writing list after list.. checking and double checking. I still have a few presents to wrap and maybe a few more to buy for the girls. Im hoping to be completed including wrapping by friday night... large glass of baileys and christmas music will get me through.
This weekend will be spent doing our usual christmas trips card delivering, christmas cards, visits to santa and checking out the local lights, getting the girls super excited for the big day at 3 and 6 they will really feel the magic..
Does anyone else do the same things every year in the build up?

Monday, 28 October 2013

Blogger award

So I was nominated for this award by the lovely Ellie...

The versatile bloggers award is a great way to find new blogs for yourself to read. 

Part of the rules is to list 7 things about yourself... 

1- I am left handed but I don't turn the page, I write upside down
2- I know every word to bat out of hell, meat loaf, have done since I was about 10.. Who doesn't?
3- I am slightly OCD in that I like switches to be off,light switches to be the same, the tap in the kitchen to be straight... 
4- I have a giant Flemish rabbit who is bigger than most cats and small dogs..
5- I love making plans, I just love to be organised.
6- I love fresh bed sheets but HATE the job of changing the bed.. 
7- I am obsessed with Reese's peanut butter cups

Now for my nominations

If you don't know about this award here is the link

If you are nominated, you’ve been awarded the Versatile Blogger award.

  •  Thank the person who gave you this award. That’s common courtesy.
  •  Include a link to their blog. That’s also common courtesy — if you can figure out how to do it.
  •  Next, select 15 blogs/bloggers that you’ve recently discovered or follow regularly. ( I would add, pick blogs or bloggers that are excellent!)
  •  Nominate those 15 bloggers for the Versatile Blogger Award — you might include a link to this site.
  •  Finally, tell the person who nominated you 7 things about yourself.


Tuesday, 22 October 2013

Time...not enough

Just sitting here thinking how fast the day has gone, as does everyday... 
The biggest fell and hurt herself earlier and all she wanted was for me to sit and cuddle her, of course I instantly went to her and sat and cuddled my baby... But then running through my head was the hundred other things I knew I had to get done this evening.. I still sat and cuddled.. I could see my coursework waiting, the clothes that needed sorting, the washing up.. It all went Into a blur, the littlest came to join our cuddle and I just sat there thinking what does it even matter? The most amazing people in my life are sitting right here, they need me almost as much as I need them... I just need more hours in the day. 
Does anyone else feel this way?